ciao bella

sorry to anyone who actually reads this thing (i don't write these posts for people to read, i write them mainly as a non-personal electronic journal thing, mainly to vent and to just put all of my thoughts into one place) that i haven't written in forever...or however long it was until i posted last---i've been in italy the past week!! i've been staying in various places, all with limited internet connection and times i've been able to go on (while staying with our family friends, they would turn off the internet router promptly around 10) and the few times i've been able to use my padre's tiny little computer, i've been skyping/spending minimal amounts of time on facebook.
alas, i couldn't get away from blogging and going on sites i normally would check at least twice a day if i were home, so here i am.

italy is absolutely amazing. there are so many things here that are the same as in america, yet there are so many differences. for one, they don't have dryers-i have 6 pairs of underwear hanging on a rack on the porch outside my window as i type this...speaking of, i should probably get them before they blow away-awkward. also, pretty much everyone here is skinny, tan, and beautiful. literally. if you are below the age of 40, you have a 99% chance of falling into that category. i'm so used to fatass americans my age, either orange, obese, or just generally lame, that i felt so out of place and ugly here. i'm getting over that though-i just take creeper photos and go on my way :3

as great as italy is, i'd like to be home. going away for 2 weeks in the middle of august was horrible timing--not only are most of my friends already going to be in college by the time i get back, but i'm missing out on quality time with people that i'm dying to be with. its funny how a few people are so ingrained into your life, and your so used to seeing them every day or every other day, that if you don't see them for a few days, you start to freak out. that's whats happening to me right now. there are about 4 people that i've seen/talked to every day during the summer, and now that i haven't seen them for a week, i don't know what to do with myself. i guess its good since i'm going off to college in a few weeks, but i'd rather have the time now to be with them. sounds retarted right? a part of me not wanting to be in a different country, experiencing new and brilliant things, just because i haven't seen a few people face to face? idk.

wow...looking back i really seemed to ramble on; sorry to anyone out there who found/even bothered to read this post, since it contains all fluff and you basically got nothing out of it. it started out as a post about italy, and ended up just me being homesick and going on about how different italy is. if i haven't given the impression, i really do like it here. i just miss home. it would be so much better if i could see a few certain people (or just one) face to face.