i've been trying to live my life in the moment- to not close the door to new opportunities, and to try to learn as much in the process. this is slightly difficult as i am a thinker; i usually need a lot of time to myself and a lot of sleep to sort out my daily issues. since i haven't gotten much of both lately, it's been difficult to find out what i want, but ergo, i'd rather not have these events stop. i guess i have to learn to think quicker and to decide based on emotions rather than sort out the best path to take, and see where it leads me. it partially helps to know that i'm going off to college in a few short months, so if i fuck up majorly now i'll be in a new city in practically no time. in the meantime, a certain someone (who will not be named) has gotten my moods to switch as fast as mrs amatos does. while this slightly pisses me off (when this certain person doesn't text or gets annoyed, i get bitchy and cranky) i kind of like how someone else can affect me like this, because it's never happened before. been listening to this (vv) nonstop today; i'm such a sucker for french lounge.